I am astonished that within a week of making my blog live I was contacted by two other survivors. I can’t express how that felt. Ok maybe I can 🙂 It was like a life raft. “Hey, it’s ok, we’re out here too and we’re ok.” I’m very grateful.
I had big plans for this post and all the wonderful things I had to say, but like I replied to a commenter on my last post, I just felt the valve release and all the pent up anger release once I published the first post. Now I’m left with bits and pieces that I have to identify like an archaeologist.
I can say this. My mom has been dead for ten years now. I’ve finally gotten to a place of anger. Not total anger. I’m able to touch it and run away from it. But if I were to come face to face with her again I’d beg her to love and forgive me. Beg in desperation. *sighs.* Screw you too mom.