So much has been going on and swirling in my head…don’t even know where to start talking. I think when I get like this and I can’t articulate what I’m feeling I just go into “doing” mode. I’ve noticed that I want to “do” everyone around me. Maybe it’s a way to express control…I mean from when I was little I was shown that sex was the ultimate tool of power and control.
I’ve been tired a lot lately, and scared a lot. Money is tighter than it has ever been and I feel desperate. My husband is depressed because of his job situation, and my family is going through some stuff right now. I don’t feel like I have anyone to talk to.
All I hear in my head is choruses of “I don’t wanna.” That about sums it up.