I just want to Be OK

I found a new song y’all. This one is by Ingrid Michelson. Here are the lyrics and my take on them

I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok todayI just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something todayOpen me up and you will see
I’m a gallery of broken hearts
I’m beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken partsI just want to know today, know today, know today
I just want to know something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe i will be okOpen me up and you will see
I’m a gallery of broken hearts
I’m beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken partsJust give me back my pieces
Just give them back to me please
Just give me back my pieces
And let me hold my broken partsI just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok todayI just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe i will be ok
Know that maybe i will be ok
Know that maybe i will be ok

I think that being ok is a good goal. It’s clear that Ingrid is less “ok” because of partners who have wronged her. That’s not my issue -my mum is the one who wronged me. But that’s not the point of this post.

I really identify with this idea of broken parts. I want them back so I can glue them back together. OK means being whole to me. Feeling. Feel the day. I just want to feel something today. I feel so fucking broken sometimes and unable to feel.

I don’t think I”m beyond repair. I don’t think I have a gallery of broken hearts. I have a gallery of broken trust. I just want to be in charge of what happens next.

One thought on “I just want to Be OK

  1. Hi,
    I can relate.
    Broken trust. Yeah. I’ve been trying to work on that in therapy for so long. It gets better. Trust is such a hard thing to repair. I think that it heals best with safe people and a safe therapists. I have a safe therapist now. That is such a relief.
    Good and healing thoughts to yous.
    Kate

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